I'm helping my 32 year old sister learn what is to be who she is. As if i'm 32 and she's 17, it literally is just like that. My brother has been arrested again and sent for mental evaluations for like the 2nd or 3rd time that I can remember, once being when he "tried to commit suicide" and the night ended up with a police officer pointing a gun at my face. My mom has kept this recent incident a secret from me, for whatever reason, but I know. She doesn't know I know. I miss Kathy, and Zeus, and my pops. I wish people weren't busy here all the time so someone could spend some time with me. Miami is full of busy characters, even the kids. I'm working through 8 going on 9 classes and I have like 3 projects i'm working through as well as writing this girl's community service essay for her because I know she really needs the help and I know I am able to help. I already did mine, so it's ok. Phew! I have to come up on more profit faster so I can buy my cap and gown, and pay for senior picnic, and buy a car next month, and later pay for a tux for prom, and I also probably have to buy all those cards you send to people when you graduate.I have people in my ears just playing their sound and I just need to put them all on mute. My hair's been falling out again. It happened once when I was about 7-8 after my parents divorced. The doctors said it was all my stress that my subconscious supresses and I don't even realize it because well, I suppress it. But i've found a small bald spot again, I won't tell my mom because she worries too much. But, fuck, thats some booty ass shit. I think I deserve a stress free day, with someone who can just chill with me and make me happy. Yeah, we all deserve to have a head of hair.
but there is some good news! College! Oh, yes! There has been some major strides, as perceived by me, on my part. I talked to my aunt who lives in Montclair, New Jersey and her as well as my uncle John said that if they were to have any person move into their house it would be me. My aunt is a pusher, she's strong, independent and I need her to push me. I didn't want to but because of her pushing she's persuaded me to go there this summer to attend spanish classes over the summer so I can possibly attend Montclair State University in september. The college is literally a 5 minute drive. 5. No traffic, no worries about being late. I can long board there! I'll live in their beautiful home in my cousin's room, who has just graduated college this last year and is moving on to live in China, which is basically the attic but it's a room. It's so awesome, I have two skylight's and it's just so comfortable and befitting of my spacial-related needs.
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