Ape Dos Mil

I'd just like to apologize to anyone who actually reads this about my last post (which I deleted). It was an angry day and I didn't mean the things I said. I have friends in high and low places. No doubt.

The past few weeks have been hectic on a very personal level. Including all school, and social related activities. But I make it by quite nicely. What's being a teenager without scrapes and bruises for stories? Well, you can also include all the weed and alcohol that attributed to series of events leading up to said bruises, but... I'd rather focus on the tell-tale signs of my own history.

Everyone is raving about the new Harry Potter, or bashing on it, and although i'm an avid Harry Potter fan (Not nearly as avid as pretty much all my friends who are fan-a-maniacs at best) I won't watch either part of it until the second half is out. It'll be nice to look forward to it. Why do people get so hung up on the fiction anyways? In a few years you'll be stuck with your life again and not some love story you wish was yours, or what ever story it may be. Make your life a work of art that someone else some day will look upon and wish was their own. You know what I mean? I guess I just don't understand why someone becomes so entangled like that.

I'm not sure if it's the joy of letting yourself go or if it's the flying feeling you get, but when I party with all my friends there's nothing out of place. To someone looking in you see teenagers drinking alcohol, smoking weed, playing loud music, and generally just not giving a fuck. For us? We're embracing life. No one's judging you. No one. No need to feel insecure about anything. Your drunk? Cool story, bro. So are the other 234 kids here. My liver may fail sooner than a lot of the people I know, but I had a damn good time doing it. I feel like I learned what it was to be loved in Oklahoma, but not accepted. Florida taught me acceptance at it's best. Living in a small town made me forget that there were other people out there living life with perspectives not even remotely close to mine.

I thank Oklahoma for teaching me to love the way it did, but I can't stay there either. Not sheltered like that. I can't stay in Florida because it's not a big enough piece of the worldly pie that I want.

College! Tulsa Community College in Oklahoma for 2 years and then transferring some where else to finish my last two. Probably FIU or travel abroad or something.