Old Soul Song (For The New world)

"Suppose your being lied to, would you ever even know?"

I like this picture because I always wonder what he's trying to hide from. Or maybe he's just tired of not seeing any change. Or maybe just of himself. Maybe he's hiding from the change he knows he'll never see in himself?

I've taken a new stance on everything I do, see, hear, and think. That those things are always swayed by my subconscious. To think everything you do and comprehend can be altered by something such as race, sex, or even appeal. But you would never really know in what way you're brain is being led to. It's kind of a raw deal I think.

Anyways! School, T minus 17 days I think. In all honesty, i'm making this year one to remember. I plan on getting very drunk, I plan on going to every party in Miami. I plan to have leave my phone at home along with my worries, and lazy habits. I want to do something! The last two years have been spent sitting in my own self loathing filth, and it's time I shut the fuck about it. No one wants to hear a broken record. Not even me.

It all starts on the 17th when my mom leaves for a romantic cruise with her fiancee to Europe. (Look at me, sounding like some aristocrat hoping to spring away from rules with mommy and daddy's spending money). We'll have moved into our new house and I plan to invite some people over at least for a week, and party and bullshit. If you've never lived in Miami you either party or you don't do anything. Not to say I don't respect people who respect themselves enough not to get shit-faced at some party, but i've spent so many days not doing anything, so if its a step up from nothing then i'm down.

I have so many problems I kind of gave up on myself. So if I kind of just re-create myself instead of reinventing myself, which to me are not the same, then I have a better chance of actually being happy. I'm not sure what futuristic harm this may do, but i'll ask my therapist if I ever need one cause of it. Feel me?